*dusts off the blog* Woah! There’s a lot of spiders and such in here.
So, hey there. It’s been… well, a very long time since my last post. This last year has been absolutely crazy, and I can tell you that there’s still more to come before the year is out. That said, let’s get caught up, together!
I decided to participate in this year’s NaBloPoMo, the blog equivalent for NaMoWriMo. Essentially, instead of writing a novel this month, you write one post a day in your blog to get back into the habit. It seems like a great opportunity to pick this back up, right?
Today’s prompt: When you’re having a bad day with your mental health, what do you do to help yourself?
Here’s the deal: I live with severe depression and anxiety. I have to take a SSRI every day to stave off the worst of the symptoms that I face (namely, panic attacks), and while that helps alongside with therapy, these aren’t the cure all. I still have days that I feel down. Worthless. Pathetic. Undeserving of being alive, or of having love, or work. Dealing with Imposter’s Syndrome. It happens.
When I’m having a particularly bad day, I turn to music.
I’ve been knee deep in music for as long as I can remember. When times were rough, I had music as a source of comfort, a private hideaway to get away from the worst that I was dealing with. I had music in good times when life seemed full of promise and hope. I had music as an accessory to grocery shopping, and music when I was hospitalized last year. Music has been the backbone of my life.
So when I have that bad day, I curl up with some music – along with some chocolate and perhaps a warm apple cider, or cold pumpkin drink – and close my eyes.
VNV Nation is my favorite band, and I can recommend SO MANY SONGS – I might in one of these monthly posts, in fact – but this song, in particular, is a great, if sad, reminder that sometimes you just need to cry it out. You shouldn’t have to change yourself to fit in.
Sometimes you need to see something cute <3
Sometimes you need perspective…
…sometimes you need to feel inspired…
…and sometimes, you just need something awesome.
There’ll be more music posts/recommendations to come, I’m sure. If you interested in some suggestions, leave me a comment below.
The most important thing to remember is that you are still a human being worthy of love, dignity, and respect. Take care of yourself. <3